count my blessings

i had a horrible night. i slept at 430am.

ii)
this morning, mom woke me up and asked me to send her to temple for praying. i replied her in annoyance, werent we went before cny? mom said its different.

i dragged myself off the bed, fetch her to the market to buy oranges. my face was super black. i didnt even respond to her in most of the conversations she tried to start in the car.

we reached the temple, i told her i m going to wait in the car. she said no, you come down and pray too. i asked her why should i show up in public with my super puffy eyes? she kept quiet and i went down.

we came to this counter which help to write the "notes" to the god. its for those who "chong tai sui" or general people to have a smoother year. mom asked me to gave name when the lady at the service counter asked. i was taken aback and asked, whose name?

yours la, mom replied.

i gave my name. do i need to give sisters name too? i asked in lower voice. no need, mom said.

my tears dropped. i pretended it was due to the smoke from the burning joss sticks.

i didnt talk much after that even until we came home. i didnt even apologise to mom for my rude behavior earlier.

i)
my lil angel xue saw and heard me last night. he went to mom's room and told mom. i dont know what happened to thing ii. she was alright in the evening (xue n i went for haegen dazs n dragon-i in the evening) but why she is so sad crying now? please dont scold her.

he told my eldest sis that i was crying last nite. i must be very upset.

iii)
eldest sis asked me to shop with her. we went few boutiques utilising her short break between the kids' tuitions, i bought 2 dresses and 1 blouse. i m happy.


i have the greatest family in the world. i m very grateful for having them. occasionally, sisters will call and ask how m i, why i sounded sad and stress. each of them have their own ways in cheering me. dad cooked maggi for me. mom cooked the curry crabs and pray for me. sisters give opinions, encouragements, advices, listen to me, talk to me, take me out for movies or coffee or shopping. the angels hug me and kiss me, draw me drawings.

i realise i have no reason to feel sad.