i went to the temples with mom today. The prayers were a bit late this year due to my holiday and work. i didnt go to temples in the past and was only there a handful times with mom for my departed grandparents and brother.
i never see myself coming to these Taos temples and do some burnings. However, since i drove mom to the temples more often after we moved in to new house, i started to enjoy the ambience and appreciate the meanings behind all the prayers and burnings (:P)
In Buddism we dont do alot of joss sticks and paper burnings but i was not there to judge. i was there to observe and learn. it's amazing looking at all the people from this modern society to be grateful and humble praying to the gods, ancestors and deceased family members, even those in big cars and speaking only english.
i was touched when i was there looking at mom (with the smiling yet a bit shy face and the white hair) checking out some of the "new rituals" or things to do/ prepare(well, we are kinda "modern" family with limited knowledge about prayings although mom still knows a lot more than me :p). mom prays for us in the family even in the past but watching it with my own eyes, i felt warm and loved ^^ especially what mom did for me last year (http://shiauthing.blogspot.com/2011/03/count-my-blessings.html) (love u mom)
i am not sure if all our whispers to the gods, joss sticks and papers we burned are received by the gods, i just love the feelings of humble, grateful, peace at heart and loved.
Being said all the above, i still dont remember the prayer days and rituals. I wonder if i will be able to do all these and talk to mom when she is not around one day?
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