I know i have taken this birthday way too "serious" as I demand a playful yet significantly memorable birthday. I want it to be as fun as possible to prove how young i can be and also as meaningful as possible to remind myself what awaits ahead.
I know this is not because i m afraid of being 26 but it's the following number - 27. It was an age i thought/ EXPECTED myself to be successful in life when i was small. I thought i will have everything in life at their best by then. wisdom, family, friends, my own little family, health, wealth, career, fame, power and time to enjoy life...
It's only 1 year plus before i turn 27, how on earth m i going to achieve all that?
I know somehow i have perfectionism inside my gene although i've borned premature, missed virgo and be a leo =p i always want everything to be the best within my efforts. i know i dont have every privilege in life but i strive to achieve some great things in every moments of my life, be it as small as having a good meal or be a good person or bring the happiness to all people around me, etc..
it feels like the last month of preparation before you walk into the examination hall.. not a short period but not really sufficient time to do anything big.. i guess this will be a challenging year for me to see what i can do with my life.
well, i know this is not really an exam, as i only report to myself on my "results". maybe its more like a point to re-examine myself, my direction, and my efforts. although i can always forget about this review thing or always postpone the review point further, i decided to give myself a "final" push before 27. no more time wasting wandering and wondering :) we shall see what happen in this coming year ya..hehe..
But i've learned some idea from a book i read lately which i think will change my approach to my life - "The Joys of Not Having It All"
Pre- Happy birthday to myself! (thanks my family and ed for the first round of celebrations. LOVE u all)
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